Right Down to the Tiniest Detail…..

  • April 10, 2012
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HE CARES!!!! In every day, in the tiniest detail, I’m trying to see HIM. We praise God when we see Him in the big, but do we praise Him in the little? Often times I don’t. Not because I don’t desire to, but mainly because I’m too busy to see Him. When we are intentional about looking for God, we will find HIM always. We are His masterpieces and He loves to lavish us with HIS goodness.


I want to share a personal example of seeing God in a tiny detail recently. As you know, March 10 was a very special day for Altar84. We were blessed to host the very first, kNOw More Orphans Conference. It was a wonderful day and we were overwhelmed with God’s graciousness. The day ended with a special moment for my husband and me. I tear up every time I think about it. It was a sprinkle of God’s love on our faith.


Let me give you a bit of the back story, without boring you with every detail. Go with me back to early 2009. Our family had spent quite some time asking God to break our hearts for what breaks His. We asked Him to use us and bless us. Our hearts had been turned towards the orphans of the world, and we were fixing our gaze on God’s grace.


We still wanted more children and I was feeling the desire to adopt. Shortly after the first discussion I had with my husband on this topic, I found out I was pregnant with our seventh child. The following 8 months or so would give us plenty of time to discuss and pray about whether to take this leap of faith. My husband would not mind me saying that he was less than excited about adoption as an option for our family. He felt that it was a great plan for many families but he wasn’t quite sure it was the best for us. Most likely because he had only heard this idea for our family from ME, not (yet) from God.


We agreed that scripture commanded ALL believers to care for orphans but NOT ALL to adopt one. After several months of discussion (arguing :), we decided we would attend the upcoming Together for Adoption Conference. Eight and a half months pregnant and ready to deliver any day, we loaded up and headed to the conference. We were asking God to speak clearly to us through the speakers and show us what He desired orphan care to look like for our family. Was it adoption, or NOT?


The week-end equipped us with much knowledge about caring for and loving orphans. We were more convicted, yet excited after every session. On the final evening we heard a beautiful message from Dr. Russell Moore. We were both overwhelmed as we headed home. I had planned to give the LORD a couple weeks to fertilize all that He had planted in our hearts during those couple of days. I bet you can guess how long that lasted ;)…. not long at all. Of course I cried several times over the course of the conference (for goodness sake, I was an emotional basketcase fearing that I would deliver a baby at the local hospital, hours away from our family). However, I also noticed my sweet hubby was very emotional as well. Although, thats not uncommon for him either. So, I decided to go ahead and dive into this conversation while our emotions were up.


We were only a few minutes out of town when I asked him to share what he was thinking about all that we had learned. Yes, I’m a bit impatient! He teared up as he told me that through Dr. Moore’s message, God had confirmed to him that we WERE being called to adopt. The course of our lives, according to our plans, was changed forever on that day. I was praising God….. and Dr. Moore. I was wishing I could hug his neck and thank him for being God’s messenger.


Fast forward to the spring of 2010. We submitted our application to adopt and in December of that year our paperwork (dossier) was sent to Ethiopia. Our family was placed on the wait list for a baby girl. Initially, our agency told us that we would be matched with a baby within 7 to 11 months. We were more than excited! To our surprise, Ethiopia was about to experience many problems and it would place mountains and many more months in between us and our baby girl. I must say, God has used this extended wait time to expand our hearts and minds and He has been more than sufficient. Many good things have come out of our delay, but that’s for another post. All that to say, we still depend on HIS grace to keep our faith strong when our hearts long to see our daughter’s face, every. single. day.


Now, go with me back to the kNOw More Orphans Conference on March 10th. Our Sovereign God allowed Dr. Russell Moore to join us as our final speaker of the day. My husband and I sat down front and I choked back the tears as I heard him repeat many of the truths about spiritual adoption and caring for orphans that we first heard from him on that fateful day in 2009. Afterwards, we knew we could not miss this opportunity to share with Dr. Moore, his involvement in our adoption story, and thank him.  He was so humble and even choked up as the tears streamed down our faces. We told him that our baby girl’s name will be Esther. He hugged us and asked if he could pray for Esther. Immediately, I felt the presence of the LORD! Right there in the middle of this huge moment, yet tiny detail, I felt HIM embracing me as Dr. Moore prayed. It was as if God were saying to me, “sweet daughter, I am ALWAYS faithful….. trust ME…. I love you!”. A few minutes later, a sweet friend sent me this picture.

Friends, our God is faithful, HE is loving and HE cares! He cares enough to be right in the middle of the tiniest details. At the very moment this picture was taken, we were physically and mentally exhausted because of the time spent preparing for the conference. But, we were (and are) also emotionally exhausted from the time spent “waiting” to hold our daughter in our arms. God knows we are exhausted, and HE cares!


“Take the old prophets as your mentors. They put up with anything, went through everything, and never once quit, all the time honoring God. What a gift life is to those who stay the course! You’ve heard, of course, of Job’s staying power, and you know how God brought it all together for him at the end. That’s because God cares, cares right down to the last detail.” – James 5:11-12 (the Message)


Until there’s NO more,